Of Broken Trust and Broken Hearts
March 23, 2006 by edzguanko
Loving is hard.
I once said that loving is not an investment but a gift. You should not expect anything in return, or get angry if your love is not reciprocated. This applies only to one-sided love. It’s a whole different ball game if you are in a relationship.
For me, there are three factors that hold a relationship together — Love, Trust, Respect. These three are interconnected… one cannot exist without the other.
If there is no trust, even if you love each other, the relationship is bound to fall apart.
If you love each other but the respect is not there, sooner or later love will turn to hatred.
You can only truly say that you love a person if you trust and respect him with all your heart and soul.
Last night, I have yet another reason to fear commitment. I have witnessed the utter despair of loving and losing; of being made a fool; and of having your trust broken and your heart torn into a thousand pieces.
I knew that feeling once. For me, it felt like drowning… slow, painful, and suffocating. It took me a long time before I could breathe again, and even breathing was painful. I still recall it once in a while, but at least I am now strong enough to push those ugly memories away.
I thought I’m ready to take a risk again. Last night proved me wrong. I am still scared shitless of falling in love, because the next time I drown, I don’t think I’ll reach the surface.
i really like this,nka relate ako…hopelessly romantic kc ako! can u please send me a copy of this? tnx
hi tita jen! i’m glad u like this entry… because it is one of the few entries here in my blog that make sense =)
i wish i had talent like this galing mo talaga i like you!
thanks for the compliment, chief webby =)
whew what can i say… miss singkit has done it again…. am guilty as charged…. ur words hit me with a bang!! a song goes…”somebody ripped my heart out & leave me here to bleed”… i am bleeding and it hurts so much…. i really want to end this. hope i can find someone who would help me patch up my wound…. someday i know i’ll be with him…i just have to wait and hope that things will be better as the day goes by… love yah singkit
@kat: aren’t we all searching for that one person who’d make it all better?
i’m sure you’ll find him, dear (or maybe you have already hehe). just be patient and let Fate do her thang. goodluck!