The Essence of Me

It seems like I’ve been closing a lot of doors this year, and it’s only April. On the 19^th, my undergraduate life is officially over. Actually, the ceremony is already a year late because I graduated last summer. The thing is, now that I’ll finally be walking down the aisle of the Film Center, wearing my sablay, and receiving my diploma (or a symbol of it), I feel like I am closing another door.

It’s true that I can go back anytime to pursue higher studies, but I can’t help but feel sad. So much has changed since the last summer I spent there… I grew up.

Now, I’ll be going back as a different person… and I hope that whatever change has happened to me is for the better. I hope that all that I’ve been through this past year will prepare me for the long journey ahead.

Graduation day is an occasion to be celebrated. I should not go around moping and feeling sorry about myself. That day may not be complete for me, but my family would be there. With everything they have given me, they deserve to see that I am happy. I just wish that on that day, in my heart, that is what I’ll truly feel.