The Essence of Me

So what if we have a deadline coming up? I’m still going to update my blog.

It’s not that I’m not worried. Fact is, I am very worried. But like any stressed individual, I need to relax and take a breather. So forgive me if my thoughts are not organized, I’m just writing whatever pops into my cluttered mind.

Superman (contains spoilers!) 

Last night, I went to the advance screening of Superman with a friend. It was a so-so movie. The special effects were okay, and Brandon Routh is an absolute hottie. His acting needs work, though (since this is his first movie, I guess that’s forgivable). He barely spoke in the movie (Lex had all the good lines). My favorite actor there is Lois Lane’s asthmatic son. He’s just adorable! The pace of the story is a bit slow. There was one scene where Superman was taken to the hospital and he was in a coma. The hospital staff removed his supersuit so he was just wearing a hospital gown when Lois visited him. I just can’t believe that Lois failed to see that Superman looked like Clark Kent. I mean, how thick can you get?! That was unbelievably dumb.

And correct me if I’m wrong, but doesn’t Superman fall to pieces when he’s near a green kryptonite? In his faceoff with Lex, Lex and his goons beat him up badly because they were standing on land laced with green kryptonite. Then there was this scene where Superman lifts this landmass (the same one where he was beat up) and hurls it into outer space. WTF?! How can he not kick Lex’s ass when he can lift that freakin’ landmass? That just didn’t make any sense. If you’ve watched the movie and you think you can explain it to me, please do. I’d appreciate it very much.

Maybe I’m just not a Superman fan. He is just too powerful for my taste. I like Batman better because he’s human, and he doesn’t have any special powers. All his skills had to be learned the hard way. And the fact that he’s a ninja also adds to his appeal. Besides, Superman’s costume just doesn’t do it for me.

But for me, nothing beats Storm. Imagine being able to control the weather… that would be awesome! If I had her powers, I’d make it rain every day.

All Dolled Up  

Last week, I went to work wearing a cool hat that matched my shirt. My friend and I got into a discussion about how I’m no longer in college, and that I should dress more seriously. I said it shouldn’t matter as long as you do your job well. She said when people see you dress casually, they automatically assume that you are not taking your job seriously. I said that was just plain stupid. She said that’s life.

Hoping to find an ally, I told another friend about the said discussion. This other friend said that I am way too casual (I was a wearing a Garfield shirt, gray jeans, and my dependable sneakers, and I was carrying my big Tommy bag. Well, gimme a break, it was a Friday!). She said I should wear more makeup and to fix my hair. And instead of sneakers, I should wear girlie shoes or sandals.

So, yesterday, I got all dolled up. I wore a pair of black figure-hugging pants and a blouse with a plunging neckline. I put my hair up and wore makeup. I also wore my two-inch high, pointy shoes that nearly killed me. One thing about high heels is that when you wear them, your walk automatically becomes sexy. Or at least, that’s what happens in my case.

Dressing up did something to my confidence. I felt pretty and sexy. But I didn’t expect other people to look at me that way, too. That’s why I was surprised and flattered when some decent-looking men actually did a double take, and as I was standing on the curb, a car slowed down and the guy at the driver’s seat stared and smiled at me. There were two bold enough to openly flirt with me. And the security guard in the building let me in without an ID. I don’t have any illusions about the way I look. I know I’m no beauty (and this is coming from my own father, so it has to be true). But it is also true that if you feel beautiful, it would radiate from you and people would see you the way you see yourself. I admit it was fun once in a while, but too much work for everyday life. Well, what can I say? I’m a T-shirt kinda gal. 

eBay Shopaholic 

I am a certified eBay addict and guess what I’ve been buying… books! I am getting Memoirs of a Geisha, Like Water for Chocolate, Crime and Punishment, Five People You Meet in Heaven, Tuesdays with Morrie, The Zahir, Harry Potter 3, The Guardian, One Hundred Years of Solitude, and David Copperfield. Too bad I didn’t get The Captain’s Verses by Pablo Neruda. I just go crazy about books. I wish I’m as crazy about clothes, because my friends say I need to start investing in clothes. All right, I’ll spend money on clothes next time. But not until I got Emma and Persuasion by Jane Austen. oh, and also Collected Poems of Emily Dickinson. When I have all that, I’d go shopping for clothes.

Something to think about:

"The one important thing I have learned over the years is the difference between taking one’s work seriously and taking one’s self seriously. The first is imperative and the second is disastrous."
- Margot Fonteyn