Back on the Rollercoaster
November 20, 2006 by edzguanko
After a relaxing weekend at home with my family, after bravely affirming to myself that I can live without romantic complications, after realizing that I need to be serious and driven and focused, I am back on the rollercoaster.
This is what I was afraid of… I am beginning to wish he’d try to get to know me better… to discover the me beyond the fun and laughter… to learn things about me that no else tried or bothered to find out.
I can hear his voice in my head right now, and I know exactly what he’d say.
It’s just that, when I’m with him, it’s so easy to forget how different we are. It’s so easy to pretend that this could work… that something good and long-term might actually come out of it.
I knew what I was getting into when all these began. But I’m realizing that, perhaps, I have bitten off more than I could chew.
I have no regrets. This episode helped me realize that I could crawl out of the emotional rut I was stuck in.
But I have to stop now, or else I’d find myself stuck in another, much deeper rut.
Believe me my dear niece…In my experiences, I had come to realized a much greater plan for me by Him!! The more I fight it..the more I stumble..
One very enlightening advice.. it is not LOVE that defines you as a person.. It will not make you happy unless you are happy about your self..
When I finally realized that I am to remain single all my life..there comes my true love.. your Uncle Glenn..
Just be patient..your time will come!!!
thanks for the advice, tita jhie, and i’m really happy that you and uncle Glenn found each other =) best of luck to both of you!
Emotional ruts can be due to poor decision-making. Many people live in a cyclic agony becasue they cannot decide when to let the rollercoaster stop.
well said =) i’m all too familiar with ruts, but i try to learn as much as i can from each experience… the most important of which is the knowledge that, no matter how deep the rut is, i can always find the strength and the will to climb out of it.