The Essence of Me

After ten months, I saw him again.

It was nice seeing him after a long, long time. I was a bit nervous, not knowing how he would act, or what he would say. To those of you who are wondering about D’s identity, he’s someone I had quite a colorful (but extremely brief) history with. So anyway, I saw him again recently and it was surprising how comfortable I still felt around him… and he seemed pretty comfortable around me, too.

The only thing that made me uncomfortable was when he started teasing me about the things I wrote about him here, in my blog. I never even knew he was reading them. But read them, he did. In fact, he read them so well that he was even quoting me. It was really embarrassing and flattering at the same time. Embarrassing because we never really had anything romantic, and silly girl that I was, I wrote some pretty sentimental stuff about him. No wonder we lost touch… I guess I scared him away. But it was also flattering because he bothered to read my blog, and that somehow it made an impression on him because after ten months he still remembered what I wrote.

Well, that’s all in the past. I have grown up a great deal in the last year and I can handle having him back in my life. In fact, I like having him back. He taught me to be uncomplicated. He taught me that there are really no rules in this game. Lastly,  he taught me to relax and just go with the flow.

Thanks, D. See you when I see you.