The Essence of Me

When a friendship falls apart, I think we die a little inside. This is true especially for people who do not take friendships lightly. I am one of those people.

I am friendly but very selective with friends. It sounds contradictory, but it only means that I get along well with most people, but only let a few really become part of my life. And I’m happy to say that I’ve been truly blessed when it comes to friends.

That’s why it distresses me so much that one of those cherished friendships is starting to fall apart… a friendship shared with one that I treat like my own sister. What’s more distressing is that the cause is really very trivial.

I do not want to lose this friend, I really don’t. But I’m not so sure she feels the same way about me. Friendship is based on reciprocity… you cannot call someone your friend if he /she doesn’t consider you one. And she’s ignoring me like it was I who did something wrong.

The last time I had a falling out with a friend was back in college… but we were able to renew our friendship after we graduated. I am hoping that this will happen, too. We’ve been through a lot, we were there for each other during hard times… and I don’t want all that to go to waste.

I really hope she feels the same way.